Look beyond Failure

I have not had much success in any recent job interviews. Although they were all great opportunities. Starhubs, GFA, Cerebos......
I found it so hard to talk about my personal achievements; these interviewers must be thinking if she couldn't even market herself well, how is she going to do a good job as a marketer. I, too, had problem reconciled this with myself.

It's almost impossible and totally unbelievable, I am a full fledge Marketer and I couldn't market myself in the best possible light and all, let alone doing it well.....???!!!

It only hit me now that I couldn't do it not because I couldn't do it, but I couldn't let go and look beyond 'my failure' in M&C.

I was humiliated because I 'consent' to people who doubted my capability and I allowed them to continue to doubt me even after I left the organisation.

Some part of me are blaming myself for not doing enough to keep the job. And when someone ask that question why do I want to leave, it just hit right home.

I am broken.....

I need to get pass this, I need to recognise that what I have done, I have done it in my capacity best. I should not be ashamed of what they don't know enough and didn't recognised. I am good, I am really good at work.

I rolled out a programme ' impossible' to 11properties. I won over all the GMs and many people on the ground. The guests were happy. And what's most important is; I make it happened. I did something and I was and still am proud of my achievement.

On the same note, I should not be sorry or feel responsbiled just because the stupid Chairman and WHR did not appreciate or understand my effort. It's definitely their lost not mine.

I shall not look at it as a failure anymore. I shall look beyond and move on.

I am freed! Freed from the mental prison.